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Hurt

Hurt brings pain and pain stays with you. Often times when we're hurt by those around us, we spend more time analyzing the hurt than dealing with the pain. We ask ourselves all the necessary questions, "why did they hurt me?" "What could I have done to prevent that hurt?" or the ever so famous "Where did I go wrong?"...but when we've moved past the action that hurt us, we're left with the remnants that linger so long and penetrate so deep. I always say pain is inevitable. I can't see a way where we can navigate through life without pain, and honestly, that sucks. There's some comfort in knowing that you're not alone and everyone, including those close to you, will face their own pain at some point. Theres also some comfort in knowing that even though pain lingers, its something we can overcome. What I'm struggling to find comfort in, however, is knowing that pain changes you. You're never the same after a traumatic experienc...
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Patience

This might be a heavy topic for some, but it's quite enlightening for me. I've always heard the term "be careful what you pray for", and I only understood what that statement really meant when I prayed for patience.  I was always a bit hostile and made decisions a little too quickly. While that may not always end in disaster, I've never implemented boundaries when it comes to my hasty decisions, so I took a hostile approach to anything and everything. Thinking before I acted was a foreign concept and I had no desire to become familiar with it. Eventually, and because I'm quite self aware, I acknowledged this problem and implemented a plan to fix it. This plan started with prayer, and God left no space for me to change my mind. He answered immediately.  Honestly, I was quite a bit shocked. I felt like my problem was so dire, that God was just at the edge of His seat waiting to deliver me. That feeling quickly passed and I got down to work. God had me in the rin...
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Back to Basics

We're often faced with challenges we dont quite understand. We tell ourselves "yes, this is a challenge", but when we think about the "why", we're often left without answers. Why is this so challenging for me? Why isn't this relationship progressing? Why do I feel so stagnant? The questions regarding the "why", can be endless, but the answers rarely surface. This is the moment in which we should go back to the beginning.  Looking at a situation from its core enables us to understand that said situation at it's current state. A perfect example is looking at yourself. We are who we are today, because of everything that may or may not have happened to us in the past. If we're always hostile, impatient or frequently angry, look back and ask yourself, what's the origin? What caused this behavior? What influenced this change? Same for if you're overly caring, giving tirelessly to others or finding yourself overcompensating for the beh...
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Introduction

Hey everyone,  Welcome to my innermost thoughts. I'm Nelly and I've started this blog simply because I have a lot to say, however, my audience is limited. Not limited in number, but limited in their efforts to actively listen, and because of this, life can feel lonely at times. I don't necessarily think that a blog will help with my loneliness, but I do think that writing about my life, just putting it all out on paper, whether someone reads it or not, will at least make me feel like a weight has been lifted. I don't know how effective it'll be and it can just be the blog version of the placebo effect, but I'll give it a try.  By reading this blog, you'll be exposed to my innermost thoughts, rants and venting sessions about anything and everything life throws at me. It's my intention to be transparent and as detailed as possible, just in case there's someone with similar experiences, needing to know that theyre not alone. I believe that in all things...
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